CLOSURE.
if you only knew how scared I was.....
if I had the guts....
I was scared to hurt you...
But now, I've been wrong....
I should have the strength before.....
(regret.) (no! no! no regrets..)
now. it came into a halt.
may both of us rest in our own peace of minds...
start of a good life na oh. :]
Whew. what happened this day?. kadamu!. :]
bad things.
bad stuffs.
awful moments.
awful scenarios.
and a small good "stuff".
1. FRIEND problem.--ok. so here it is. just a drop of a hint.
well, kelangan ko mgtagalog. :p
masamang makialam ng may buhay ng may buhay. sadyang mali.. hanggang payo lang nman tlga ang pwede naming ibigay bilang friends. ok un. pero i realized na masyado tlga kmeng sumobra. first of all,
it is ur life. u know how to handle it. second,
everyone of us has their own point of view of emotion. alam niyo na un. iba't-iba ang itinitibok. kaya walang nakakaalam ng nararamdaman ng isa't-isa. third,
SAKIM si AMIEL!. bwahaha. di niyo ko magegets eh. friendly matters to. :p
-- kung sino ka man. 3 reminders for you.
a.) sana isipin mo bawat hakbang. because we all know that there's no coming back. and if there is, that's a different route around. :]
b.) listen to your heart. noone asked you to listen to EVERYBODY's hearts. hindi kame ang utak at puso mo. kaya't sundin mo lang ang naiisip mong tama. and you don't have to please everyone in what you choose to do.
c.) nandito lang kame, ANG BARKADA MO, always. understand nalang kung may mga situations na umoover kame sa limit bilang barkada. iniicp lng nman nmen mga maaaring mangyare, and the consequences na pwedeng ikahirap mo in the future.
Kaya always put in your mind, na kahit na ano pa ang maging decision mo sa buhay, we'll never question that na. Suportanta ka friend. Dahil makikita din nmen na jan ka masaya sa ginagawa mo. :] And you know what's right for you. We'll always be here for your DOWNFALLS.2. nagalit si Sir Espo. wuhuhu.-- it's the quiz bowl nman kse. Well, kme tlga may ksalanan nun. :] di kme nglilinis. and nkatambay lng kme. shocks. maghanap daw kme ng bgong ticher. haha. AMBABALIW NG EUCLID!!!. ako nalang Physics teacher! para laging free time. hahaha. :p
3. nagalit si Ma'am Domingo...-- sige. pag-initan ba naman. kase nman, sumobra na sa pagkapasaway ung mga di nagpasok ng upuan sa loob ng room. Excuse me, reyna ka? princesa ka? hari ka? prinsipe ka? at may tigahila ka ng chair mo?. Sobra ka na ha!. haha. senxa sa matamaan. :]
-- badtrip diba?. hapong tapat. uwiang tapat. sigaw ang abot sa adviser. sira na mood. :p
ANG KAISA-ISANG GOOD THING...4. MALAKING SURPRISE KAY ma'am daduya na
kanyang ikinatuwa. HAPI BERTDAY!!.-- cake. balloons. candles. card. flowers. & ____ i forgot. haha. natuwa naman c ma'am sa amin. :] naka party hat pa kme chorba no!. haha. san ka pa? para kmeng ngprusisyon na ewan. ang buong baranggay!!. sige sugod sa lib!. haha. ksma namin Aristo, e.
"you make my day"- Ma'am Daduya
ALERT!!!! ALERT!!! ALERT!!!test sa
STAT bukas!!!.
aral aral. hirap daw magpatest, e. haha.
Labels: birthday alert :), daily ramblings, FRIENDly moments
june 23! isang taon!
saturday!!!. weeeee.
one year na kami ni seph-seph!. haha. :p
labyu pre!. -_-
skul time. tnapos ang stone tablet. gnanahan gmawa kya nging artistic ang aking isip. hihi. nakinig sa choir... anggnda ng (525600 minutes...) tska ng umagang kay ganda. kain sa jabi. gnamit ung mga coke chorba discounts. haha. ansaya!.
pumuntang k-mart at inabutan ng ulan. whooo. :]
nanuod ng F4 Rise of.... not that nice actually. haha.
Actually, i'm expecting more of it. Like Shrek 3, I watched it in Maryland, and I was disappointed for the fact that they can do better than that. Although it is still SHREK. i mean the ogreness and the funny lines, it still though rocks. :]
I have to practice our dance. AP will be 4 days away. And I still have to memorize the changing of formations. And I still dont know jigga, jigga and bolewhoooo (bojangles, and pass that dutch respectively.) ahaha.
that's all for now.
seph-seph and me had a datey-datey.
i missed him soooo much!. hihi.
Labels: daily ramblings, DANCE.ü, relationships
miss this voodoo!!
Oh gosh!. it's glad to be back. after loads of schoolwork, im back from the school's graveyard. whew. Well, i missed blogging so much. I do have a lot of stories, but technically, I can't tell a lot. For the reason that, yeah, I'm lazy accompanied by a hectic schedule. charing!!!. haha.
What can I say about the start of this school year???. Two words for you my dear. SOOO BORING!!. I hate it, because they removed one section from our year. then POOF!. we're separated from each other. Being a 3rd year student, do suck for a lot of reasons. DOUBLE SCHOOLWORK. that means, DOUBLE EFFORT and DOUBLE HARDWORK. and one thing peeps, we can't use our saved probations right now. If you got below the sea level (i call the grade), get out and move. That simple. and That ugly...
The teachers, well, quite nice. but again DOUBLE EXPECTATIONS. double NO-FREE TIME..... so sad... *sigh. but hopefully this will be a nice year. HOPEFULLY... :]
Why is it so hot???. I hate the weather!! Super... But sometimes rainy season is not good too. Puddles, and mud. ewwww. Fans!. Super paypay fans!!. :]
I was never too late for classwork. I did get to habul and habul. run and run. jokingly. haha. And I hope our subjects will be a lot more easier as time goes by. (in my dreams... huhu.)
I want to dance!!!
"You make me feel like dancing!!!"PUSH IT, PUSH IT!. TO THE LIMIT, LIMIT. that's ma'am daduya.
"to get you to the limits.." i love JUMP IN!!!. :]
--- i miss this voodoo. :p
Labels: daily ramblings, movie madness, school blahbity
the people I like
You don't have to please others, EVERYONE, to be liked. But in reality shows, they have to!
The following are persons from shows that please my eyes. :]
I like
Joanie and
Sarah of America's Next Top Model.
I like
Melissa S. of The Next Pussycat Doll.
I like
Saicy of Pinoy Big Brother season2.
I like
Michael and
Ula of Project Runway.
I like
Rocky/Raque of Laguna Beach.
Today, I did nothing. My day is filled with hot, stupid daily scenes of life. I want to feel cold but I can't. I want to be happy but I don't know, I can't. I want to do something, but something I'm lazy at keeps on coming close to me. Why is the opposite happening to me???.
Labels: boredom, daily ramblings, TV madness
im home!!!!!. :]
I didn't post yesterday cause right now I just came home from Manila. My parents were about to go to this funeral but my dad hesitated and went strolling at the mall. (bad, eh?.) :)).
mumultuhin sila nun!.
Anyway, I missed posting even though It's just for a day. And gawd it's so tiring!!.
puro byahe!. But good thing I did shop a lot!. Swip! Swipe!. *sounds like I spent a lot from my mom's credit card. hahaha. She's so good to me and bought all what I want. :p We just shopped at SM North Edsa. I discovered this cute store,
Hot Topic. Maybe you know it guys. I want everything there!. haha. Ticket flipflops. Audrey Hepburn bags. so hAWt!!. I got my new swimsuit. hahaha. um. It's quite showy but I'm trying to exercise a lot to lose those tummy fats you know!!. :)) My mom told me to use it a lot cause it's expensive. Sorry bout that mom. :p I also got new shades.. :]
I ate at Razon's (first time). It's in Pampanga. The palabok there is so nice! and their halo halo!! oooh. haha.
Do dreams have meanings?. I got this funny dream. I'm gonna tell it to you, guys. Kasi, me and my barkada are all in a beach outing. Even Sir Abarro is in there. :))
[Sir Abarro - n. Narra's
torturer teacher in Bio and Bota].
Ok. Continuing my dream, he drives an owner and wears a flowery-print polo like Gerome. They look like twins you know. The difference is Sir is a lot whiter. :] Then, I brought a big bag filled with beach stuffs. I put everything outside the bag, I dont know why. Then, I drove this car in the water. Like im enjoying a jetski! (But it's a car. haha). Then the door opened and I found myself deep down in the water, when I saw Iang
[Iang - n. Meynard's love interest]
riding a parasail with friends. The parasails are in different colors!. Weird!. My dream has colors!!. :) Then suddenly, everyone went out of water and rode in Sir's owner. (like everyone will fit there). I rode with them but I left my bag, my things spread on the sand. Also!! I left the car in the water. It's dad's car daw pala. haha. I was scared to be scolded by my dad. So I left the owner, and went back to the beach. Then I saw Chelsea
[Chelsea - n. Baguio girl]
and Christine
[Christine - n. American girl].
They we're together with Christine's look-alike cousin daw named Carla. In my dream. But in real life, Ate Carla is her sister. haha. Then my dream went into another scene. It skipped!!. My dad is yelling at me, "How dare you leave my car in the water!?!"
THE ENDI don't understand. Maybe it's just an effect of thinking a lot about beaches. haha.
Need to go to the dentist.
My teeth has a fucking problem again!!.
Argh!.
Bye!. Lotsa love!
;)
Labels: daily ramblings, dreams, SHOPaholic
didn't expect those...
I dont know but do you believe the saying 'Expect the unexpected'?. Well, how would you expect the unexpected if you don't know what's the thing unexpected?. Waaah!. It's just wrecking my tiny, pitied brain. Speaking of brains, I can't forget what happened to my academic life. (How my brain suffered that much, thinking "This cant be true!!!!". ) From rank 9 I went to 27. That's what you get daydreaming alot about my hopes for this summer. It sucks, really. But practically, that's life, eh?. I cant blame no one but myself. And one point for all students out there, who can't just resist their extended necks and hushed voices just to copy answers, Stop those cheating stuffs. (Um. Try it once a day or week or month, but not on everyTHING!.ü) I became so dependent with it that I ended like a parasite sucking what my
katabi knows about the test. Until the time came that, I can depend on them no more cause there's no more blood to suck, you get me?. Hayy. 3rd year, Ill keep my hopes up on studying that hard. haha.
The moment we said 'ok' to the things needed for tomorrow for the party.. krrr. krrr. krrrr. "Let's just stop this mess.."........., I realized. Nothing will happen in this. Most of us aren't sure. And our supply of food,,,, where??? where??? where??. We can't just swim all day drinking those chlorine from the pool and don't eat!. That is the most fucking part of not making it happen. I don't want to think about that anymore anyway. If God will just bring us together... complete!. with necessary thingies. Then, it might work...
Me. Hanna. Chelsea. We just went to Wimpy's, strut ourselves in those rotating-into-place seats. We did eat something cold for this super-hAAAWWWT season. uh huh. eat. eat. eat. spend. spend. spend. Until I can hear no more those clanking coins in my wallet. No signs of bills.. And signs of a capital B. BORING VACATION, ugh!. Wtf was the problem with my life without money??. Is it that such a big thang?. Why is it just so hard to save and so easy to spend??. After eating those walang kamatayang french fries. My stomach is filled with catsup. I just passed time by squeezing catsup from those bottles into the plate, drawing hearts, then sprinkling sugar. Whatta baliw mode!!. (sorry to the Wimpy's crew. haha.)
5.30. kkrrr. kkrrr. kkrrr. I wanna go home. Beep. Beep. Woah! A stampede of now-i-can-go-home workers. What a bad timing for me to walk when it's the perfect time for couples' walking-on-the-moon scene, im tired of it!.
Err, excuse me?. Can you please walk a little bit FASTER !!!!. IM NOT FURIOUS!!!!. --nah. conscience starts to explode. :)
Labels: boredom, daily ramblings, summer days
the after-(cover-up). ;)
This was a very exciting day for me!. weeee!. This is different from all those summer days (after school vacation. ugh.). It's with excitement. Kahit papano, my adrenaline glands were in use in my today situation. haha. Sorry to say, i can't tell you guys. Someone might be reading this and tell it to the person whom i don't want to let know!. haha. Hayy. Exciting, huh. lol.
Oh cmon, Arli said that there will be a Summer Journalism thingy that'll be held in the
sucking rocking school. Don't raise your eyebrows at me. I tell you. That school
sucks rocks a lot. But not the people, huh!. (But other students, they really do). Especially that skinny girl who did nothing but gossip about my friend!. She's not just skinny she's insecure!. A hoe!.
Wait... oOh.. the canadian pig just walked by infront of our house. Eeew.. Now she's dropped her sickly slutty virus! (Im not mean. The thing is, she's meaner!). Beware people of the Philippines, once you've been struck by her piggy eyes, you're gonna be like her!.
Don't hate me.
Im telling the truth.
She deserves it anyway. :]
last post for the day.
love lots!. :)
Labels: daily ramblings, ssh and lies, summer days
ugly day..
I woke up it was seven waited till eleven just to figure out that no one would call. Ok, wrong starting sentence. haha. Actually, i woke up it was 11.30. Damn,
it was hot. The aircon was turned off at like 5.30am and the electric fan is not working!.
Summer nights really suck!. (what more in days.?!.). That's why, i really enjoyed a lot when it rained two days after yesterday!. Yay!!. (
nagparamdam elemento ko!).
Sa totoo lang, my first hours awake were bad... I don't know. I woke up in the other side of the bed!. Im freakin' bitter to the people in this house even to my textmates--textmate lang pla. haha. (im sorry.). I don't know why, but i think the reason is because i slept bad.
May kaaway ako bago matulog. nyeh!. haha. The last topic was
girls. (Im not jealous, don't think about that). haha. There's just some things that came to my mind. And right now, i think im fine
na. haha. And do you know the feeling that, others want you to be somebody else you don't want to be?.. That's just my feeling. But after eating, back to normal. haha. (food gives a smile in my face. hahaha.)
Wait. Just take a bath.
Ill fill up my days with lies.
(and cover-ups. haha.)
Wish me luck!. :)
*wink.
Labels: daily ramblings, MAD mood, summer days
