T.T i miss you...
hayyy. nothing to talk about.
I'm gonna talk about my lovelife na lang. haha.
Waaah. Yesterday I think will be the last time I'll spend time with him. I've accepted my fate naman, e. That I can't be sooper legal with him right now. That there can't be no dates and stuffs.
He just graduated last March. Now, he can't be at school all the time like what I'm used to. Before, I could always glance at him at the court. Now, I'll just daydream na lang.
Hay naku Seph, I'll miss you so much..............
Labels: love, relationships, SAD me
galit ako... -naks.
i don't want to be a martyr anymore. so what if you're mad at me, I don't care....
- im mad, e. kase mukha akong tanga.
SURVEY ULE! Do you straighten your hair everyday?
~ hindi nu! pampalandi lng un!. haha.
What's your favorite girly magazine?:
~ candy. :)
Would you kill for chocolate?
~ yeah sure! >:|
Jeans or skirts?
~ jeans. :)
Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry
that's uncomfortable?
~ yeah!.
Did you ever spend all day/night
getting pretty for a guy?
~ di nman! haha.
Would you leave the house without
makeup on?:
~ oo nman! i dont wear make up. eww.
On a scale of 1-10, how fun is
shopping?:
~ more than that!!!!!!!!
Are you spoiled?
~ no, e. haha.
Do you think lipgloss is the best?:
~ no.
Do you freak out if you miss your
favorite show?
~ yeah! sobra!.
Do you yell a lot?
~ pag glit at furious uu. ahaha.
How long does it take you to get ready
~ bsta mah 1hour. :)
Do you wear sweatpants/pajama pants to
school/work?
~ no. haha.
do u like skater boys?
~ hm. pwede na. haha.
Is pink truly the best color in the
entire universe?:
~ no.
Lip gloss a must?:
~ .shut up. no.
Have you ever dressed unlike yourself
to impress a guy?
~ no!.
Do you often wish there was something
you could change?
~ yeah........
Gold or silver?
~ silver. :)
The guy that you like/love/whatever,
what does his name begin with?
~ i dont wanna mention him.
Do you dress up too much for holidays?
~ no po.
Do you like wearing dresses?
~ di nman mxado. pero im trying to like dresses. :)
Do you write a lot of mushy love
poems?
~ no!!.
What makeup could you not live w/out?
~ eyeliner or mascara. pero khit wala un. ok lng!. :)
Labels: boredom, ME blahblahs, surveys
BORED.
I uploaded friendster pics. and now, I got nothing to do. period.
SURVEY kelangan mong mamimili..walang 'both' o
'none' na sagot.
1.Yosi o Liquor?
= liquor. :)
2. Spaghetti o Palabok?
= spaghetti. :)
3. Lipstick o Lipgloss?
= lipgloss. :)
4. Flower o Chocolate?
= as a gift?. flowers!. :)
pero pag as a thing, chocos!. :)
5. Yellow o Green?
= green!. :)
6. food o drink?
= FOOD!. :)
7. Phone o Pc?
= phone ata?. :)
8. to dance o to sing?
= dance!!. :)
9. Tahimik o Maingay?
= maingay!. :)
10. Backless o Topless?
= xet! backless. :)
~*Anong sasabihin mo pag sinabi sayo
ito ng bf/gf mo??
11."Iiwanan mo rin ba ako?"
= aba. depende sa iyo yun. kung may gagawin ka na ikagagalit ko. :p
13. "Ayokong nagsu-sout ka ng
sleeveless"
= ano bang masama dun?. :p
14. "Nagyo-yosi ka ba? itigil mo na
kaya"
= hindi ako nagyoyosi.
15. "Crush ko dati yung kaibigan mo"
= ngaun?. care ko?. haha.
16. "Ayoko na! Break na tayo,kailangan
ko pa hanapin sarili ko!"
= anggaling mo nman!. go! mghanapan kayo ng srili mo!.
~*Anong sasabhin mo pag sinabi sayo ito
ng kaibigan mo?
17. "Wag ka nga maingay!"
= sssh!. :)
18. "Ang gulo mo?"
= haha. kaw din!. :)
19. "Crush ko bf/gf mo"
= spak gusto mo?. haha.
20. "Ouch! ang sakit!"
= nice
friend's name! haha.
21. "gimik tayo!"
= why not?!?. :)
~*Anong sasabihin mo pag sinabi sayo
ito ng mga magulang mo?
22. "Wag kang aalis!"
= ahm. takas pwede?. ü
23. "Okay na ba sayo tong 50pesos na
baon?"
= uhm. kr. kr. kr. ewan?.
(acting na "hindi pwede!" haha.)
24. "Wag ka nang sasama sa mga
kaibigan mo!
= at bAKET??.
25. "Mag seminaryo ka nlang!"
= ayoko magpari!. madre nlng. haha. eew.
26. "I-break mo na bf/gf mo,hndi ko
siya gusto?
= ngayon?. ikaw ba ang magmamahal s knya?.
27. "hoy! Late ka na!"
= late kung late. haha.
28. "Lumayas ka!"
= pera muna!. :)
29. Pinaka-kinaiinisan mong dumadating
buwan-buwan?
= ayun na un!. haha.
Labels: boredom, ME blahblahs, surveys
ALERT! BIRTHDAY ALERT!
Happy Birthday Cess!
Happy Birthday Cess!
Happy Birthday Princess!
Happy Birthday Princess!
Happy Birthday Princess Karen Mendoza!
Happy Birthday Princess Karen Mendoza!
-- ika'y katorse na!
-- kung nababasa mo man ito....
sana you have more birthdays to come..
-- matuwa ka nman na sana sa LOVELIFE MO!. haha.
Labels: birthday alert :), greetings, icons
my own unfortunate events
Hayy. It's so long before I did post again. (2 days lng nman). :]
Now I have to think.. hm. Ano bang ginawa ko the past 2 days?..
..... nothing....
But a lot happened. First, our house was just a wall away from a burning house and you know how fire grows and spreads so fast. Second, I think I'm gonna have a vacation in the US for 1 month after my dad's bday (may5) and I can't attend my first week of school. For me, this is bad news. And I don't know why is this happening.
In my first story, well earlier this morning, it's like 1.30 am, I was about to go to sleep that time, when I heard a guard from the street shout, "
Tumawag na kayo ng bumbero!". I was like what the hell is he saying?! Then I heard my mom and dad's footsteps. They went down and checked what's it all about. After seconds, my dad went to the room and asked me to go down quickly cause there's a fire!. Well, it's not in our house. But God, it's the house behind us. I mean, just a wall separates us from the fire. So what does this mean?. Our house will be into ashes?. First, when my mom asked me to wake up my brothers, I'm still smiling. Cause I can't believe this is true. In my mind, it's like a dream where I'm the lead actress and I'm on a fire scene. But when I went out, I saw the fire blazing at the other side of the wall and everyone in the neighborhood is panicking. My mom went out in her nighties, God. Then a lot of usiseros went to check what's happening. The firemen came. splish splash here. splish, splash there. We're praying, really. Me and my brothers stayed in the car. My lola is like so furious. That's her house and what about all the memories??. and our things?. Then, in the middle of the fire scene, a car approached. It's Gordon. Then I saw Rolen Paulino walking. What the hell???. We don't need you! We need water!! Get away, as if you care a lot. You care about the votes, don't you? Then, the fire automatically stopped.... kr. kr. kr. Back to sleep ladies, usiseros, and gentlemen.
Second story. My mother hasn't confirmed it yet but she told me that I might stay in the US for a month for the vacation this May. One month? So I'm gonna miss my first days of school??? No. I just can't miss that. That's the most exciting part of school! And of course the buying stuffs. hahaha. But I just can't miss the opportunity that this is the first time I'm about to travel out of the country and I can be in another part of the Earth. This is my chance because my grandma will pay for my ticket so It's free. And my mom will just spend for my pocket money. bwahaha. I wanna see a lot of different places. I wanna feel how cold it is there, even it's summer though. I wanna know how does it feel to travel in a place you don't know and you wander like a lost child in a big world. :] We're gonna stay in my tito's house. Maybe Calif. Though I really wanna be here on my first day....
Missy. Missy.
I miss my classmates!!!!
I miss my friends!!!
>.<
Labels: ACCIDENTS, flying..., summer days
to please all of you??. no. no.
I hate to be pressurized. I even hate people who put high expectations on me. Who wants it anyway? Everyone knows how is it to have people think high on you. Especially in being smart, being beautiful as a girlfriend, being super nice and commonly being on the top when it comes to school things and competitions. It has this ugly feeling. I can't please everyone, you see that? Maybe someone, but not everyone. I have to please myself first. I know what I'm doing. You don't have to tell me. If I'll regret it, well it's up to me. At least I wouldn't have to blame you.
I am experiencing this pressure thing. I don't wanna tell what's it about but I think it's just wrong to compare me with someone and expect me to be HER. Most of all, even I do all the things to be her, I can't be!. Cause I can only be me, not anyone!
Sometimes, its just annoying that people have to tell you what to do. They even boss around like they understand and know everything you feel! Another thing, why do they have to reject us for our faults and imperfections. We give them the right to tell us the things we have to change for our good. But we are the only ones who have the right to mold ourselves for the good.
I am human. I make mistakes. It's not your own business. So fuck up and get your own life. :] I walked on the road with the sun in its high and all! I can feel the heat sticking on my skin and I can feel my face burning because of the hotness!!!! I hate summer when I don't feel it. I just love summer when I'm at the beach. haha.
I miss schooling so much!!. Before I sleep, I get so excited being a junior! And I can't sleep thinking about the new adventures and new laughing trips!! But when I think of the teachers (new strict teachers) and the 3 math subjects. I think of going to sleep na!. haha. I hate math.... well I love it when it favors me. shortly speaking, when it's easy. When did Math get easy?... Hayy. Im gonna miss my other classmates that will transfer or be in another section. But I will love the new Euclid. I just hope the bratinellas would change their lives!!!. I heard that one brat will join Euclid. Just be good or else you won't belong!.
Naks. nagreyna reynahan na!. hahaI am so excited to buy new stuffs for school!!!
Up to this na lang.
I can't think of other things to write.
xoxo
Labels: life matters, school blahbity, summer days
i'm a dentist's pet. :p
What do teens say about braces?
-> Ow.. It's being "cool". (with that twitch of the fingers.)
-> Yeah.. She's just rich. (with the taray of the eyes.)
-> It's just pampaarte!. DUH!. (with the pilantik of the fingers.)
To tell you,,
-> It's not being cool. (others just think it is.)
-> It's not being rich. (right now, almost everyone has it in their teeth.)
-> It's not pampaarte!. Duh!. (do we want this??)
I was born with the not-so-beautiful set of teeth. And since Grade6, that was summer, I became a
DENTIST'S PET. don't you know it sucks?. well, for me, kinda. haha. I didn't wish for this, I just wished I was one of the kids//teens born with the precious set. Anyway, why does it have to be beautiful?. Because the teeth is a very good asset? Because everytime you smile and people would see it, rather than they smile back at you they frown? Because people wouldn't like to talk to you and everytime they see your bad teeth, nababadtrip sila? Maybe that's just it. haha. Somehow, I'm grateful that we have that money to make my teeth presentable. (is that the right term?. haha.)
After two years of braces, I think my teeth is still not that perfect. Now, I'm in my retainers and it's bullshit!. I can't speak my R clearly. And my S doesn't even sound like it's an S. It's "esh". Hayy. :]
My tummy aches a lot!!!. >:| This is not about the poopy stuff. haha. I think I have ulcer. NO!. NO!. It can't be. (im just kidding, ha!.) :]
It's so hooottt!!!!!!!!!!. Waaaah!. Im gonna die with this kind of weather, really!!!. Argh. Sweat. Sweat..
How damn it is to balance your focus between your parents and your boyfriend. Who would you follow anyway? Your parents, who just care a lot and they don't want their child to end as a failure just because of this boyfriend stuff AND tells you you're still bata and there's still a lot of time for you to focus on that? "
Papunta ka pa lang pabalik na kame". Or your boyfriend, who remains just as an inspiration and makes you happy and understands you a lot?.
Hmm. I think it really depends on how we handle it. As long as we balance the consequences of what we choose and be sure not to regret it, I think we can decide for ourselves. :] Just be easy on things. Follow your heart, at the same time use your brain. Definitely, it really is hard. Well, thats life.
In the end, we choose what we want and we choose our own consequences. Labels: issues, life matters, ME blahblahs
im home!!!!!. :]
I didn't post yesterday cause right now I just came home from Manila. My parents were about to go to this funeral but my dad hesitated and went strolling at the mall. (bad, eh?.) :)).
mumultuhin sila nun!.
Anyway, I missed posting even though It's just for a day. And gawd it's so tiring!!.
puro byahe!. But good thing I did shop a lot!. Swip! Swipe!. *sounds like I spent a lot from my mom's credit card. hahaha. She's so good to me and bought all what I want. :p We just shopped at SM North Edsa. I discovered this cute store,
Hot Topic. Maybe you know it guys. I want everything there!. haha. Ticket flipflops. Audrey Hepburn bags. so hAWt!!. I got my new swimsuit. hahaha. um. It's quite showy but I'm trying to exercise a lot to lose those tummy fats you know!!. :)) My mom told me to use it a lot cause it's expensive. Sorry bout that mom. :p I also got new shades.. :]
I ate at Razon's (first time). It's in Pampanga. The palabok there is so nice! and their halo halo!! oooh. haha.
Do dreams have meanings?. I got this funny dream. I'm gonna tell it to you, guys. Kasi, me and my barkada are all in a beach outing. Even Sir Abarro is in there. :))
[Sir Abarro - n. Narra's
torturer teacher in Bio and Bota].
Ok. Continuing my dream, he drives an owner and wears a flowery-print polo like Gerome. They look like twins you know. The difference is Sir is a lot whiter. :] Then, I brought a big bag filled with beach stuffs. I put everything outside the bag, I dont know why. Then, I drove this car in the water. Like im enjoying a jetski! (But it's a car. haha). Then the door opened and I found myself deep down in the water, when I saw Iang
[Iang - n. Meynard's love interest]
riding a parasail with friends. The parasails are in different colors!. Weird!. My dream has colors!!. :) Then suddenly, everyone went out of water and rode in Sir's owner. (like everyone will fit there). I rode with them but I left my bag, my things spread on the sand. Also!! I left the car in the water. It's dad's car daw pala. haha. I was scared to be scolded by my dad. So I left the owner, and went back to the beach. Then I saw Chelsea
[Chelsea - n. Baguio girl]
and Christine
[Christine - n. American girl].
They we're together with Christine's look-alike cousin daw named Carla. In my dream. But in real life, Ate Carla is her sister. haha. Then my dream went into another scene. It skipped!!. My dad is yelling at me, "How dare you leave my car in the water!?!"
THE ENDI don't understand. Maybe it's just an effect of thinking a lot about beaches. haha.
Need to go to the dentist.
My teeth has a fucking problem again!!.
Argh!.
Bye!. Lotsa love!
;)
Labels: daily ramblings, dreams, SHOPaholic
blub. blub. blub.
Just smile to hide it all. (=
Deep inside, im crying. T.T
Why do I have to be hurt?. Is this karma?. (particularly, all the lies I've said and bad things I've done.) If this is real, I just wanna dream and stop living... I don't wanna feel anything..
Why is trust, when it is lost it's so hard to gain back?. I've tried to lose my parent's trust and up to now I'm still doing my best to have it again. Now someone betrayed me. Well it's not a serious betrayal. But it's so hard to bring back my trust to him-SLASH-her. But they said, if you love someone you'll still give him/her a chance to earn your trust again. Whew, it's hard to forget.... (i keep on trying.)
I posted this for you. :]
Basta, i forgive you
na diba?.
>.<
WHAT I'VE DONE
linkin park
In this farewell,
There’s no blood,
There’s no alibi.
‘Cause I’ve drawn regret,
From the truth,
Of a thousand lies.
So let mercy come,
And wash away
What I’ve Done.
I’ll face myself,
To cross out what I’ve become.
Erase myself,
And let go of what I’ve done.
Put to rest,
What you thought of me.
While I clean this slate,
With the hands,
Of uncertainty.
So let mercy come,
And wash away
What I’ve Done.
I’ll face myself,
To cross out what I’ve become.
Erase myself,
And let go of what I’ve done.
For What I’ve Done
I start again,
And whatever pain may come.
Today this ends,
I’m forgiving what I’ve done.
I’ll face myself,
To cross out what I’ve become.
Erase myself,
And let go off what I’ve done.
(From what I've done
From what I've done)
What I’ve done.
Forgiving What I’ve Done.
Try to listen to songs of linkin park's new album. :]
metal-free na po!.
they changed their genre to punk/classic rock. :]
-- I need God.
time for him. :)
bye!. muuahs!. :]
Labels: life matters, lyrics, SAD me
avoid the tumor twins!
I'm not talking about twins having tumor. lol.
Before boredom kills, I like to tell you about this thing that keeps me for days. :]
I'm currently reading this book by Sean Covey entitled the 7 habits of Highly Effective Teens. This book's incredible. :] I got enjoyed in this one part, cause specifically I'm in Habit4 right now and it has really affected me and I think even every youth out there. It says...
Life really isn't about competition, or getting ahead of others, or scoring in the 95th percentile. Sometimes we think that life is really about competition. That I must win over you or If I'll lose you must lose too. Those insecurities that protrudes us to pull other people down so you can be on top. These experiences are very much common to close friends, right?. Or likely to your mortal enemy. Because right now, we're in this generation that being on top and having the right state-of-being are concerned. I experience that too. Especially in fame and who's gaining more friends. But know I realized that I must be happy for someone if he has gained his success and that may even give me inspiration to get to my success too. :]
The trouble with the rat race is that even if you win, you're still a rat. The tumor twins I'm talking about is
comparing and
competing. It is right to compete and compare yourself to yourself (for you to know what things you still lack), but to compare you from others, and to compete from others,,,, think again..... :] You may end up on top, but you'll be there alone without friends. Who wants that?
Oh my God, I speak like
Shim. That bitch. :] But I tell you, read a lot! lol. I hope something will happen to my life with the things I read. hahaha.
Anyway, I'm still bored out here. and I don't have LOAD!. waaaaaah!...
I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO! me! me! talk to me!
- myself... ;)
Labels: boredom, issues, life matters
didn't expect those...
I dont know but do you believe the saying 'Expect the unexpected'?. Well, how would you expect the unexpected if you don't know what's the thing unexpected?. Waaah!. It's just wrecking my tiny, pitied brain. Speaking of brains, I can't forget what happened to my academic life. (How my brain suffered that much, thinking "This cant be true!!!!". ) From rank 9 I went to 27. That's what you get daydreaming alot about my hopes for this summer. It sucks, really. But practically, that's life, eh?. I cant blame no one but myself. And one point for all students out there, who can't just resist their extended necks and hushed voices just to copy answers, Stop those cheating stuffs. (Um. Try it once a day or week or month, but not on everyTHING!.ü) I became so dependent with it that I ended like a parasite sucking what my
katabi knows about the test. Until the time came that, I can depend on them no more cause there's no more blood to suck, you get me?. Hayy. 3rd year, Ill keep my hopes up on studying that hard. haha.
The moment we said 'ok' to the things needed for tomorrow for the party.. krrr. krrr. krrrr. "Let's just stop this mess.."........., I realized. Nothing will happen in this. Most of us aren't sure. And our supply of food,,,, where??? where??? where??. We can't just swim all day drinking those chlorine from the pool and don't eat!. That is the most fucking part of not making it happen. I don't want to think about that anymore anyway. If God will just bring us together... complete!. with necessary thingies. Then, it might work...
Me. Hanna. Chelsea. We just went to Wimpy's, strut ourselves in those rotating-into-place seats. We did eat something cold for this super-hAAAWWWT season. uh huh. eat. eat. eat. spend. spend. spend. Until I can hear no more those clanking coins in my wallet. No signs of bills.. And signs of a capital B. BORING VACATION, ugh!. Wtf was the problem with my life without money??. Is it that such a big thang?. Why is it just so hard to save and so easy to spend??. After eating those walang kamatayang french fries. My stomach is filled with catsup. I just passed time by squeezing catsup from those bottles into the plate, drawing hearts, then sprinkling sugar. Whatta baliw mode!!. (sorry to the Wimpy's crew. haha.)
5.30. kkrrr. kkrrr. kkrrr. I wanna go home. Beep. Beep. Woah! A stampede of now-i-can-go-home workers. What a bad timing for me to walk when it's the perfect time for couples' walking-on-the-moon scene, im tired of it!.
Err, excuse me?. Can you please walk a little bit FASTER !!!!. IM NOT FURIOUS!!!!. --nah. conscience starts to explode. :)
Labels: boredom, daily ramblings, summer days
the after-(cover-up). ;)
This was a very exciting day for me!. weeee!. This is different from all those summer days (after school vacation. ugh.). It's with excitement. Kahit papano, my adrenaline glands were in use in my today situation. haha. Sorry to say, i can't tell you guys. Someone might be reading this and tell it to the person whom i don't want to let know!. haha. Hayy. Exciting, huh. lol.
Oh cmon, Arli said that there will be a Summer Journalism thingy that'll be held in the
sucking rocking school. Don't raise your eyebrows at me. I tell you. That school
sucks rocks a lot. But not the people, huh!. (But other students, they really do). Especially that skinny girl who did nothing but gossip about my friend!. She's not just skinny she's insecure!. A hoe!.
Wait... oOh.. the canadian pig just walked by infront of our house. Eeew.. Now she's dropped her sickly slutty virus! (Im not mean. The thing is, she's meaner!). Beware people of the Philippines, once you've been struck by her piggy eyes, you're gonna be like her!.
Don't hate me.
Im telling the truth.
She deserves it anyway. :]
last post for the day.
love lots!. :)
Labels: daily ramblings, ssh and lies, summer days
ugly day..
I woke up it was seven waited till eleven just to figure out that no one would call. Ok, wrong starting sentence. haha. Actually, i woke up it was 11.30. Damn,
it was hot. The aircon was turned off at like 5.30am and the electric fan is not working!.
Summer nights really suck!. (what more in days.?!.). That's why, i really enjoyed a lot when it rained two days after yesterday!. Yay!!. (
nagparamdam elemento ko!).
Sa totoo lang, my first hours awake were bad... I don't know. I woke up in the other side of the bed!. Im freakin' bitter to the people in this house even to my textmates--textmate lang pla. haha. (im sorry.). I don't know why, but i think the reason is because i slept bad.
May kaaway ako bago matulog. nyeh!. haha. The last topic was
girls. (Im not jealous, don't think about that). haha. There's just some things that came to my mind. And right now, i think im fine
na. haha. And do you know the feeling that, others want you to be somebody else you don't want to be?.. That's just my feeling. But after eating, back to normal. haha. (food gives a smile in my face. hahaha.)
Wait. Just take a bath.
Ill fill up my days with lies.
(and cover-ups. haha.)
Wish me luck!. :)
*wink.
Labels: daily ramblings, MAD mood, summer days
before boredom kills...
Ahhh!. Yes!. Now, i can fully say that i have a daily-to-do thing right now. haha. I just hope (please hope for me!) that this time i won't be lacking consistency. The problem with me is just that, everytime i do new blogs (actually, this is my 5th blog and i hope this won't end in nothing. :p), i get lazy in the middle of it. i probably wish that this time, i got a lot of things to share with you guys. Im just sorry if i cant share pictures with you yet. But i PROMISE to bring a lot of stories!.
Right now, im bored with everything. I always get stuck in the house, with no excitement to do. It's like a movie with the same scenes!!. Argh. I just wished, classes will come by again. haha. (just kidding!. ehe. ehe. ehehe.) I'd rather do things without effort... than Do things that needs a lot of it!!!. hahaha. Hey, this april 14, we're gonna have a closing party.. Just for the VIPs. hahaha. that's me and my friends. haha. We still don't have the place yet. Everyone's still not sure where to spend it. But the thing is, everything will come to its place as long as.... WE'RE ALL TOGETHER PEEPS!.ü me, im not yet sure if ill be allowed. (i know my dad. haha.). but ill force my parents to let me go!. I just wished it would be in the beach.. Hayyy..
Anyways, my braces were just removed yesterday. My dentist said that starting now, ill be wearing retainers. Yay!. There is this improvement with my teeth but its not yet PERFECT. haha. Why does it have to be???. Somehow, i also prefer for it to be perfect but the consequences are just too tiring for me. haha. It's my choice if i would like to extend wearing braces again.... for 10 MONTHS!!. waaaah!. That'll be harsh, with all the hardships in eating and everything. haha. I'm still in my decision process (like it was a big thing. haha.)
Bye for now.
Love lots.. :)
*ill keep posting
*leave comments. :) or just type in at my cbox. :0
Labels: ME blahblahs, NEW stuffs, summer days
