hide me!
It's so hard to
SHOW feelings lalo na pag you know it's wrong. So i tend to
HIDE myself. My true self. Alam ko namang may masasaktan din, e. And alam ko tlgang mali. Kaya akin na muna to. :]
Life seems to be too
colorful and
happy without commitment.
Actually, I am not experienced enough but I can say that having a relationship gives you
total happiness... and
total STRESS!. haha. kanina lang npag-uusap usapan.
Pag masaya ka sa relationship, sobrang saya mo!. Pag nagkaproblema nman, tendency for you to be suicidal kung mahal mo tlga. Anghirap diba?..LOVING SOMEONE IS DEFINITELY NOT EASY! Sabe nile, you just follow your heart kaya madali. Yun ang gusto ng puso kaya madali lang gawin. But
love is unfair. parang life din yan. You cannot be on the neutral side. Kelangan your either happy or very problematic and sad. kaya kahit
LOVE IS BLIND!. kahit
LOVE IS THE GREATEST GIFT OF GOD!. still
LOVE MEANS SACRIFICES!.
pero its all
WORTH it daw cause love means
HAPPINESS and
CONTENTMENT. :]
Ganun nman, e. You don't care how many tears you've cried. or how many times you've been LOW for someone.
All you want is to be loved back. Pero parang anghirap na mahalin ka pabalik e, noh? Sometimes you just pity yourself dahil di ka kayang mahalin ng isang tao. You are very much frustated at tinatamad nang mabuhay sa mundo. Pero is that right??? You just let someone control you. Di ka na tao. kasi may nagcocontrol na pala sayo, e. Problema kasi sa love, parang may pendulum swayed infront of our eyes na everything we hear, we follow it without second thoughts.
You can always learn to love someone... but how long can you stand for it and be happy for it? A name you forcedly wrote in your heart. You are happy to learn to love someone but it's not what your heart speaks...
Kelan mo ma-rearealize na di mo pala talaga siya mahal? When he/she's fallen for you so much. na mahirap nang tumayo?Kelan mo marearealize na di ka pala talaga masaya?. Kapag everything for him/her seems to be fair??. And you suddenly spoil his/her aspects in life? Mahirap. As in totally... Kelan ba naging madali ang buhay?. honestly?
NEVER WILL IT BE!
FOR LIFE IS HARD AS IT MEANS. period..
KAYA HABANG TOO COLORFUL PA ANG BUHAY. AT MASAYA PA MAGING BATA. easy lang muna. :]
"Hindi masama ang MAGMAHAL at magkamali. Lahat naman tayo tao lang. Hindi man natin sinasadyang makasakit. Hindi man nila tayo sinasadyang masaktan. Hindi man natin sinasadyang magmahal nang sobra. Hindi man natin sinasadyang magmahal nang KULANG. It all happens for a reason. and only GOD knows why. :]"-tsarmenita.
All shit that started in HIGH SCHOOL... ends in HIGH SCHOOL. :p
Ive been so lazy all day. Good thing, yung mga teachers di sila complete so mraming subjects ang wala tlgang nangyre. :] Nakakaasar lang tlga ung CHEM. It was left to us for an hour pero parang BUONG ARAW niya yatang inexpek na ggwin nmen un..
HASSLE amputa!. hahaha.
-got to go!. :p
Labels: life matters, love, relationships
woohoo. :]
POTTER IN CINEMAS. 07-11-07
everyone's too excited for this movie. :] I hope we will be early for the 1 o clock show this saturday. gosh. just the talkatoos in school a bunch. talking of MILLIONS of students who said they'll watch. still, how about the people not in school who also plans to watch???.
the 5th movie will surely be a hit if high expectations are met. :]
get ready for the exciting scenes. :] :] :]
school school...
everything has been fired up lately. from memorizations in the Sheperd thing and Maria Clara scenes plus the new and ever Sonnet 43 for some girls... to the impossible preliminary tests, may it be memorization or just the application of those I-HATE-AND-I-DON'T-WANT-TO-KNOW formulas....and to fighting urges of yawning and sleepy eyes because the rain just takes away my attention and those nakatutok fans take away my concentration and puts me in my sleeping mode. haha.
but everything has been fine and good.
love love...
talking about blaming myself... I know i've been unfair to him. I've been selfish of my love and have gone too far. I know I am wrong in breaking up with him for the unidentified perfect reason. I just realized why did it have to happen just now???. When, the time is so perfect for him being happy? Why am I so selfish when it comes to happiness? I never wanted to do this and hurt him... All i want is peace of the heart, the mind and the being itself. Still before the break up, my mind is wrangling with thoughts I can't even decide upon. I've tried to do everything. But maybe he is true.... that we are binded because of my pity of him. I AM SELFISH. But I really tried... I didnt give up easily for I know that this had fought a year and what would be the reason to end it? But this emotion came into me. That I can't take it anymore to hurt him and for myself to fake my feelings. I have to be honest and think that things happen for certain reasons... And I have to accept that it led to this because of God's plans...
Labels: movie madness, relationships, school blahbity
june 23! isang taon!
saturday!!!. weeeee.
one year na kami ni seph-seph!. haha. :p
labyu pre!. -_-
skul time. tnapos ang stone tablet. gnanahan gmawa kya nging artistic ang aking isip. hihi. nakinig sa choir... anggnda ng (525600 minutes...) tska ng umagang kay ganda. kain sa jabi. gnamit ung mga coke chorba discounts. haha. ansaya!.
pumuntang k-mart at inabutan ng ulan. whooo. :]
nanuod ng F4 Rise of.... not that nice actually. haha.
Actually, i'm expecting more of it. Like Shrek 3, I watched it in Maryland, and I was disappointed for the fact that they can do better than that. Although it is still SHREK. i mean the ogreness and the funny lines, it still though rocks. :]
I have to practice our dance. AP will be 4 days away. And I still have to memorize the changing of formations. And I still dont know jigga, jigga and bolewhoooo (bojangles, and pass that dutch respectively.) ahaha.
that's all for now.
seph-seph and me had a datey-datey.
i missed him soooo much!. hihi.
Labels: daily ramblings, DANCE.ΓΌ, relationships
heartbroken.
It's very hard to be left alone by someone you had really loved and someone you had been sacrificed everything he wanted. It's like dying painfully... bit by bit... inch by inch. You just want it to be fast, but time says, IT CAN'T. Sometimes, you just wanna ask, "is this really my destiny? to love and to give all but be taken for granted?
Did I love you just to leave me?". For any chance, it would be very hurtful.
(Let's use HE. HIM. ETC. ETC. for uniformality.)If he left you because........
1.
of his family. Well, he didn't fight for it. It's just a frustration when you do everything just for the sake of your love for this person and kaching! He doesn't even fight for your relationship, sorry. His love for his parents, really take over. There's a lot of time for it, eh?
"I'm sorry but my parents would really like me all for their own. They don't wanna share me with anyone. They want me to study first and love later.... I'm really really sorry."
-- god damn it. Why can't you show to them that you can balance it. But what could I do??. I'll just wait when the time comes....
2.
of his friends. This case means his friends let him make choices. If his friends love him that much they will understand that you love this person so much and you can part your time for them. But again, his love for his friends come first and really takes over.
"I'm sorry... I'm really really sorry. But my friends said, they would not talk to me anymore If I chose to spend more time with you. I really love them."
-- Why? Don't you love me? Why can't you fight for me?. Okay. You chose them. I think we're really not meant to be...
3.
he doesn't love you anymore. Why did he love you in the first place if later he will say he doesn't love you na. But these things really come in handy.
"Sorry, babe... I'm just stupid. I don't know why do I feel this but I think we're not meant to be. But don't be sad. There'll still be someone for you."
-- You are really stupid. This is stupid! You came near me, asked my name, got my number, courted me, then shoot, Now you don't love me???. How stupid is that?.
4.
he's not ready for commitment yet. So, what do you want??. You stepped into this thing. Now you're telling me, you're not ready???. Didn't you think that I'll be hurt by this?.
5.
of a THIRD PARTY. This one's rude. This is the ouchy part. You just want to ask, why? why why??. What is with this girl that isn't in me? Did I lack something? I gave everything but still something lacks??. :cry :cry.
"I really love her. When she came into my life, I felt that we're really good together."
-- What? Fuck up! She's not even beautiful! She's not even as good as me. But why??.
6.
he's GAY!. Nyeh!!!!. Ok. No comment. It hurts a lot. You wouln't think that your boyfriend really loves make-up and pampacute chorva kikay things.
"I'm sorry but I think I like my same kind of sex.... I'm sorry but I'm gay."
-- Shit!. Is this true?. You like guys?. Ok. Let's be friends. Best friends. :] You're cute for a gay, huh!. haha.
When we think of the times we cried, right now we laugh at it. But when we think of the times we laugh, we cry for it...Just remember, boys are just a part of our world. They're not our world. Don't be a hippocrite. It's not true that we'll die if they're not here. As long as there are my friends and shopping malls... and the money. We are born to live long!!. :] So stop those crying, dudes.
Labels: life matters, love, relationships
T.T i miss you...
hayyy. nothing to talk about.
I'm gonna talk about my lovelife na lang. haha.
Waaah. Yesterday I think will be the last time I'll spend time with him. I've accepted my fate naman, e. That I can't be sooper legal with him right now. That there can't be no dates and stuffs.
He just graduated last March. Now, he can't be at school all the time like what I'm used to. Before, I could always glance at him at the court. Now, I'll just daydream na lang.
Hay naku Seph, I'll miss you so much..............
Labels: love, relationships, SAD me
