tears and quiet moments
my tears are my only sure confidant...
crying makes the heart be calm.
i believe that crying will surely make you feel better. After that awful day, where I can't believe myself, yesterday was the only time where I let out all my hidden feelings... I want to show everyone that I'm strong. that I don't cry hard... but It's not really easy to hide the hurt you don't want people to find out. And it's definitely hard to let go of someone just because of your own true feelings. I know that I love him just a CLOSE AND TRUSTED FRIEND right now... and I know that what I did is the only right thing to do. I have to let go. He has to let go of me. I can't bear a couple more days... months.... or years... hurting him. But now, I know that it's pretty hard to be alone. With no one when you need someone... but I can handle this... :]
I am independent. I will always be happy even though I'm not. Days are filled with laughs. and nights with tears. My seat in class full of memories. and my pillow in bed full of emotional worries.
It takes a lot of courage to take one big step. To fully leave someone who has never left in rainy and sunny seasons. It takes DREAMFUL NIGHTS to surely say that I wouldn't regret it after... i know that my decision will be judged by people... persons... and friends. and i know that the guy really has to be sacrificial.. but may I let you know, that it's also hard for me... I never said it was easy for me to turn away from the years I've been with this person... I am blaming myself for letting him feel what I MUST BE FEELING. but still im disappointed of myself for making this GUY cry and stoop down...
But here it is.. It was brought to me.. All i can say is the most sincerest sorry...
I AM SO SORRY FOR MY STUPIDITY AND SUCH ATTITUDE.... Life's purpose is not to give us happiness...
It's to give us breakdowns and learn to feel happiness after...
(please respect my moment... pls. understand both sides. although it's harder for him.... blame me for everything.)
Labels: life matters, ME blahblahs, SAD me
....it's falling into pieces..
My used-to-be world, it'll be gone....
I have waited to find signs of this feeling so, way before....
But why did it have to be the opposite and came to me NOW.... just NOW....
My feelings started to feel a bit tipsy.
I need water.
Maybe a pail of water pouring unto my face can wake me up from this unfathomable reality...
I never asked to be loved...
Yet, the world gave me someone who loved me better than anyone before...
...who loved me just the way love means.
But does love mean TOO MUCH?...
Did I ask anyone to love me too much?...
Everything has been hard.
Everyone knows it'll be hard.
But not me.
I never believed. Until it happened.
Loving was never been easy.
Make me laugh.
Just for a sec.
To keep the thoughts from coming back.
Moments, memories. I'll give it back to you.
I never wanna hear from it.
I never wanna cry about it.
Kisses. Hugs.
It's too much.
....
....
Am I wrong?.
Tell me I'm wrong.
Tell me I'll regret it.
Tell me it's the end.
Tell me it's gone... forever.
Tell me there's no coming back.
Tell me. Tell me.
Dead.
Labels: love, ME blahblahs, SAD me
regrets..
Never say something that you will regret someday...
May those words gave a lot of meaning. That's what my day is all about.
Labels: blank, dumb days, SAD me
sh*t.....
I'm so pissed offf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T.T I wanna kill someone................
Labels: blank, MAD mood, SAD me
T.T i miss you...
hayyy. nothing to talk about.
I'm gonna talk about my lovelife na lang. haha.
Waaah. Yesterday I think will be the last time I'll spend time with him. I've accepted my fate naman, e. That I can't be sooper legal with him right now. That there can't be no dates and stuffs.
He just graduated last March. Now, he can't be at school all the time like what I'm used to. Before, I could always glance at him at the court. Now, I'll just daydream na lang.
Hay naku Seph, I'll miss you so much..............
Labels: love, relationships, SAD me
blub. blub. blub.
Just smile to hide it all. (=
Deep inside, im crying. T.T
Why do I have to be hurt?. Is this karma?. (particularly, all the lies I've said and bad things I've done.) If this is real, I just wanna dream and stop living... I don't wanna feel anything..
Why is trust, when it is lost it's so hard to gain back?. I've tried to lose my parent's trust and up to now I'm still doing my best to have it again. Now someone betrayed me. Well it's not a serious betrayal. But it's so hard to bring back my trust to him-SLASH-her. But they said, if you love someone you'll still give him/her a chance to earn your trust again. Whew, it's hard to forget.... (i keep on trying.)
I posted this for you. :]
Basta, i forgive you
na diba?.
>.<
WHAT I'VE DONE
linkin park
In this farewell,
There’s no blood,
There’s no alibi.
‘Cause I’ve drawn regret,
From the truth,
Of a thousand lies.
So let mercy come,
And wash away
What I’ve Done.
I’ll face myself,
To cross out what I’ve become.
Erase myself,
And let go of what I’ve done.
Put to rest,
What you thought of me.
While I clean this slate,
With the hands,
Of uncertainty.
So let mercy come,
And wash away
What I’ve Done.
I’ll face myself,
To cross out what I’ve become.
Erase myself,
And let go of what I’ve done.
For What I’ve Done
I start again,
And whatever pain may come.
Today this ends,
I’m forgiving what I’ve done.
I’ll face myself,
To cross out what I’ve become.
Erase myself,
And let go off what I’ve done.
(From what I've done
From what I've done)
What I’ve done.
Forgiving What I’ve Done.
Try to listen to songs of linkin park's new album. :]
metal-free na po!.
they changed their genre to punk/classic rock. :]
-- I need God.
time for him. :)
bye!. muuahs!. :]
Labels: life matters, lyrics, SAD me
