hide me!
It's so hard to
SHOW feelings lalo na pag you know it's wrong. So i tend to
HIDE myself. My true self. Alam ko namang may masasaktan din, e. And alam ko tlgang mali. Kaya akin na muna to. :]
Life seems to be too
colorful and
happy without commitment.
Actually, I am not experienced enough but I can say that having a relationship gives you
total happiness... and
total STRESS!. haha. kanina lang npag-uusap usapan.
Pag masaya ka sa relationship, sobrang saya mo!. Pag nagkaproblema nman, tendency for you to be suicidal kung mahal mo tlga. Anghirap diba?..LOVING SOMEONE IS DEFINITELY NOT EASY! Sabe nile, you just follow your heart kaya madali. Yun ang gusto ng puso kaya madali lang gawin. But
love is unfair. parang life din yan. You cannot be on the neutral side. Kelangan your either happy or very problematic and sad. kaya kahit
LOVE IS BLIND!. kahit
LOVE IS THE GREATEST GIFT OF GOD!. still
LOVE MEANS SACRIFICES!.
pero its all
WORTH it daw cause love means
HAPPINESS and
CONTENTMENT. :]
Ganun nman, e. You don't care how many tears you've cried. or how many times you've been LOW for someone.
All you want is to be loved back. Pero parang anghirap na mahalin ka pabalik e, noh? Sometimes you just pity yourself dahil di ka kayang mahalin ng isang tao. You are very much frustated at tinatamad nang mabuhay sa mundo. Pero is that right??? You just let someone control you. Di ka na tao. kasi may nagcocontrol na pala sayo, e. Problema kasi sa love, parang may pendulum swayed infront of our eyes na everything we hear, we follow it without second thoughts.
You can always learn to love someone... but how long can you stand for it and be happy for it? A name you forcedly wrote in your heart. You are happy to learn to love someone but it's not what your heart speaks...
Kelan mo ma-rearealize na di mo pala talaga siya mahal? When he/she's fallen for you so much. na mahirap nang tumayo?Kelan mo marearealize na di ka pala talaga masaya?. Kapag everything for him/her seems to be fair??. And you suddenly spoil his/her aspects in life? Mahirap. As in totally... Kelan ba naging madali ang buhay?. honestly?
NEVER WILL IT BE!
FOR LIFE IS HARD AS IT MEANS. period..
KAYA HABANG TOO COLORFUL PA ANG BUHAY. AT MASAYA PA MAGING BATA. easy lang muna. :]
"Hindi masama ang MAGMAHAL at magkamali. Lahat naman tayo tao lang. Hindi man natin sinasadyang makasakit. Hindi man nila tayo sinasadyang masaktan. Hindi man natin sinasadyang magmahal nang sobra. Hindi man natin sinasadyang magmahal nang KULANG. It all happens for a reason. and only GOD knows why. :]"-tsarmenita.
All shit that started in HIGH SCHOOL... ends in HIGH SCHOOL. :p
Ive been so lazy all day. Good thing, yung mga teachers di sila complete so mraming subjects ang wala tlgang nangyre. :] Nakakaasar lang tlga ung CHEM. It was left to us for an hour pero parang BUONG ARAW niya yatang inexpek na ggwin nmen un..
HASSLE amputa!. hahaha.
-got to go!. :p
Labels: life matters, love, relationships
....it's falling into pieces..
My used-to-be world, it'll be gone....
I have waited to find signs of this feeling so, way before....
But why did it have to be the opposite and came to me NOW.... just NOW....
My feelings started to feel a bit tipsy.
I need water.
Maybe a pail of water pouring unto my face can wake me up from this unfathomable reality...
I never asked to be loved...
Yet, the world gave me someone who loved me better than anyone before...
...who loved me just the way love means.
But does love mean TOO MUCH?...
Did I ask anyone to love me too much?...
Everything has been hard.
Everyone knows it'll be hard.
But not me.
I never believed. Until it happened.
Loving was never been easy.
Make me laugh.
Just for a sec.
To keep the thoughts from coming back.
Moments, memories. I'll give it back to you.
I never wanna hear from it.
I never wanna cry about it.
Kisses. Hugs.
It's too much.
....
....
Am I wrong?.
Tell me I'm wrong.
Tell me I'll regret it.
Tell me it's the end.
Tell me it's gone... forever.
Tell me there's no coming back.
Tell me. Tell me.
Dead.
Labels: love, ME blahblahs, SAD me
heartbroken.
It's very hard to be left alone by someone you had really loved and someone you had been sacrificed everything he wanted. It's like dying painfully... bit by bit... inch by inch. You just want it to be fast, but time says, IT CAN'T. Sometimes, you just wanna ask, "is this really my destiny? to love and to give all but be taken for granted?
Did I love you just to leave me?". For any chance, it would be very hurtful.
(Let's use HE. HIM. ETC. ETC. for uniformality.)If he left you because........
1.
of his family. Well, he didn't fight for it. It's just a frustration when you do everything just for the sake of your love for this person and kaching! He doesn't even fight for your relationship, sorry. His love for his parents, really take over. There's a lot of time for it, eh?
"I'm sorry but my parents would really like me all for their own. They don't wanna share me with anyone. They want me to study first and love later.... I'm really really sorry."
-- god damn it. Why can't you show to them that you can balance it. But what could I do??. I'll just wait when the time comes....
2.
of his friends. This case means his friends let him make choices. If his friends love him that much they will understand that you love this person so much and you can part your time for them. But again, his love for his friends come first and really takes over.
"I'm sorry... I'm really really sorry. But my friends said, they would not talk to me anymore If I chose to spend more time with you. I really love them."
-- Why? Don't you love me? Why can't you fight for me?. Okay. You chose them. I think we're really not meant to be...
3.
he doesn't love you anymore. Why did he love you in the first place if later he will say he doesn't love you na. But these things really come in handy.
"Sorry, babe... I'm just stupid. I don't know why do I feel this but I think we're not meant to be. But don't be sad. There'll still be someone for you."
-- You are really stupid. This is stupid! You came near me, asked my name, got my number, courted me, then shoot, Now you don't love me???. How stupid is that?.
4.
he's not ready for commitment yet. So, what do you want??. You stepped into this thing. Now you're telling me, you're not ready???. Didn't you think that I'll be hurt by this?.
5.
of a THIRD PARTY. This one's rude. This is the ouchy part. You just want to ask, why? why why??. What is with this girl that isn't in me? Did I lack something? I gave everything but still something lacks??. :cry :cry.
"I really love her. When she came into my life, I felt that we're really good together."
-- What? Fuck up! She's not even beautiful! She's not even as good as me. But why??.
6.
he's GAY!. Nyeh!!!!. Ok. No comment. It hurts a lot. You wouln't think that your boyfriend really loves make-up and pampacute chorva kikay things.
"I'm sorry but I think I like my same kind of sex.... I'm sorry but I'm gay."
-- Shit!. Is this true?. You like guys?. Ok. Let's be friends. Best friends. :] You're cute for a gay, huh!. haha.
When we think of the times we cried, right now we laugh at it. But when we think of the times we laugh, we cry for it...Just remember, boys are just a part of our world. They're not our world. Don't be a hippocrite. It's not true that we'll die if they're not here. As long as there are my friends and shopping malls... and the money. We are born to live long!!. :] So stop those crying, dudes.
Labels: life matters, love, relationships
T.T i miss you...
hayyy. nothing to talk about.
I'm gonna talk about my lovelife na lang. haha.
Waaah. Yesterday I think will be the last time I'll spend time with him. I've accepted my fate naman, e. That I can't be sooper legal with him right now. That there can't be no dates and stuffs.
He just graduated last March. Now, he can't be at school all the time like what I'm used to. Before, I could always glance at him at the court. Now, I'll just daydream na lang.
Hay naku Seph, I'll miss you so much..............
Labels: love, relationships, SAD me
